Attack of the Subconscious

I alluded to it in my last post that my subconscious has been working against me lately on this journey, and it has been. I have been having the same recurring dream the past 2 or so weeks. The dream starts out pretty simple, just hanging out with friends and socializing. The environment of the socializations changes but it is the same general concept. This part of the dream I cannot see faces, but everyone feels familiar. Then one by one people start to show up and offer me a drink.

At this point faces start to appear.  It is people who I used to socially drink with and they offer me drinks. Funny enough my mind happens to remember what I used to drink with those people because they offer me that drink. So I am now weaving through a crowd of people, offering me drinks and tempting me to break my sobriety. In my dream I pass on all of them and that I am proud of.  But it is disconcerting, and hard for me to mentally process, that I actually poisoned my body so much that my subconscious is craving and mentally attacking me to fail. 

As of today, 02/07/26, it has been 44 days since my last drink. I am very proud of myself for that and I continue to stay strong every day.

-A

"Every day sober is another day proving to yourself that you are stronger than addiction." - Anonymous