What a weird state of mind

March has not been a fun month for me, personally.

Nothing physically bad has happened, but I have been struggling mentally. My work load as I get closer to the opening of the Orlando Fringe Festival, my current school load and my thinking about what my future school semesters will look like, and my mental health all are not on the same page currently.

To top it all off, in my previous state of me I would have turned to the bottle to help quiet my mind, and I will tell you it has been tempting to do that, but I have stayed strong and have not given in.

And to top it all off, it is creating a block in content that I want to create through this platform. Why do I tell you all of this? Because I promised myself when I started this platform that I would be honest and vulnerable and raw with what is actually happening through this transition in my life. It has been 92 days since my last drink ever, and 85 days since the formal start of this journey in my life. It started out as rainbows and butterflies, but we are hitting the first round of struggles. I knew this journey would not be easy but currently it is mentally very exhausting and hard because I am no longer using my “childhood safety blanket” to help ease my feelings. 

-A

"The secret of change is to focus all your energy not on fighting the old but on building the new." — Socrates