First Temptations

Yesterday, the 7th,  was a wild ride for me. It was my first bartending gig since this journey has started and I honestly thought it was going to be a lot harder than it was.

Being around products I normally consume I thought was going to be more tempting than it was. I was strong and didn’t have anything to drink. I honestly thought this was going to be my first stumble, and I stood up strong and proud. Because I had down time, and I was thinking about our larger event in May, I had my computer with me, but instead of working on May  I actually opened up the book I had started writing last year and added a few thousand words. (A project I hope to finish this year and a goal to be a published author).

There were moments that I had been grilled about the beers and the drinks and thankfully I am allergic to beer so that’s always my out for that but when it came to the cocktails and such I was describing them, but I had some people ask what I would drink and it was an empowering moment to say “I am sober.”  Those that know me and knew my past laughed at first, and then realized I was serious, which was quickly followed by their support and their being proud of me. I then of course had a few comments of, “what kind of bartender is sober.” Those are infuriating to me, even before I was sober, because you never know anyone's situation and just because someone has a job or career that involves alcohol, it doesn’t automatically mean they are a drunkard. 

All that being said, I am proud of myself for not caving into temptation all around me. I think it helps that I have not had anything to drink since Christmas Day. While 2 weeks sober “technically” I didn’t make my official start date of my sobriety journey until Jan 1.

It's going to be another late night for me, so I may not have a “today” post - the way the vision is/was in my head - because I won’t be home until after midnight. BUT  I will have my computer at the bartending job tonight, so if there is down time I can possibly write it. 

-A